26.9.06

Midrash Dictionary

Over Rosh Hashana I was reading Chagiga Perek Bet, Bava Basra amud 79, and Brachot perek 9...

I was discussing the aggadatahs with my friends, explainting to them things I have picked up over the years. One of my friends asked me simply... Why don't they make a dictionary for these things? And I replied... good question!

So A. Does anyone know of a such a book that gives a dictionary for these things?

2. Would anyone like to help me make one?

Here off the top of my head, is my incomplete dictionary. (in no particular order- you may notice quite a few repeats)

1. Wave = Yetzer Harah, the evil inclination.
2. White = Chesed (good things)
3. Red = Din, strict justice, (often associate with chet- sins)
4. Water = Torah (the type of torah that flows from high to low)
5. Fish = Torah Scholar, or a person emersed in Torah more so than the average chacham
6. Fire = Halacha, Torah, the words of Torah Sh'bictav
7. Cedar tree = Leader of the generation, like A Rosh Yeshiva, or the Prince of a tribe
8. Mountain = Spiritual giant like Avraham, Yitzcahk, Moshe, Rabbi Akiva
9. String = A weak connection, counter intuitive, Truth but hard to proove.
10. Pillars = Key ideas, Like the world stands on three pillars: Chesed, Avodah, Justice
11. Heavens = the unkown
12. Earth = What we can sense
13. A ship = Something of importance in this world, but is transient and not so impotant ultimately
14. A Staff = The rulings of Torah
15. Crown = A stature, a good name, Malchut, Kingship.
16. Blue = Binah, wisdom
17. Mother = Binah, wisdom
18. Father = strictness, source
19. Yoke, around the neck = Acceptace of Torah
20. Locusts/ants = Prayers of the Jewish people.
21. Green = Tipheret, could also be yellow...
22. Silver = desire, teivah
23. River = Torah as understood by the current generation.
24. Chariot = Gd's control over the mundane in this world
25. Chaot(angels) = messengers
26. Cherbuim = guardians connected with relationships
27. Orphanim = More subtle messengers related to less concrete things
28. Chashmal = quickly moving idea, a brief insight, like lightning.
29. Leviathon = The righteous of all generations
30. Behamah = The animalistic side of man
31. Giant bird eggs = 10 commandments??

Help add to the list!

"Terrorists"

I heard on a brief snippet on NPR today, that Somalia (remember black hawk down?) is under attack by the "Islamists" Now, all reports say that these guys "have no connection to Al Qaeda" and are therefore, "not terrorists"... This by the way, is very similar to this report about Iraq increasing terrorism-- (right.. because no terrorists existed before 9/11)

Anyway.. I would not be surprised, and I would even wager that these "Islamists" in Somalia, have ZERO ties to Al Qaeda, they don't even have the same barber. But for anyone to say that these guys are not the same ball of wax, are not also our new definition of the term "terrorists" is just so backwards and ostrich like that it scares the hell out of me. I don't know if the Arab league is working on world domination, or if Gd is planting seeds in people's heads that now is a good time for another attempt to take over the world by force of religion, but for people to not see the connections between Hostile take overs in Africa, and the intra muslim fighting of the middle east, and the Coup of Thailand...

I hope every prays, and takes upon themselves more mitzvot to warrant Jews around the world the merit of saving us from another world war.

25.9.06

Rabbi's Sermon in Irvine

The rabbi gave an interesting sermon this rosh hashana that I was not expecting.

He informed the congregation that as a child his religion was not Judaism.

It turns out, that his religion was baseball.

He then continued to tell us baseball stats and figures for about 5 minutes, all the while mentioning the brachas he made, and the holidays he celebrated.

He said the famous line, Judaism is my "way of life", Baseball was his religion, but Judaism was his way of life, was his constant refrain.

Interesting things to think about. Other religions he gave examples of were Arts, theater, Electronics, Television, he should have mentioned blogging but didn't.

21.9.06

Can't prove a negetive

Michael medvend had the man who wrote "A letter to a christian Nation" on his program today. First time I heard his program in who knows how long... its been a while since I drove up to L.A. at this time of day. (Yay crazy shopping trips!) anyways, Medved was getting up set at the comparison between 16% of Americans beleiving that government executed 9/11 and 22% of Americans beleiving that Jesus will come back in the next 50 years.

Jesus comming back, and Torah M'sinai, can't be proved false.

However, the idea that 9/11 was commited by Arab extermeists can be proved false.

There is a difference between not being able to prove a negetive in general, and not being able to prove specific negetives. Something to think about.



Lastly, somehow, the debate on the radio reminded of a speach I once heard by a visiting rabbi. When people say that G'd creating a false age of the earth is deceptive, he argued that it is not.

When you imagine a person saying "Abra cadabra, I will make a Giant Elm Tree out of nothing... and *POOF* there is a tree. If you cut down that tree, how many rings do you expect to find? 0? 1? 30? 2,000? 15.3 billion?

Granted nobody expects to find 15.3 billion, but what about the sudden creation of a rock? What does your mind's (I)eye show you? Granted again, that this thought experiment does not answer all the many thousands of questions that is asked about the age of the universe, however it was a reminder to me, that if we think about our "fancifull delusions" of a magician creating a tree out of nothing, our mind normally envisions a Full Tree that is atleast 30 years old, and not a seed with the age of 0.

20.9.06

UN Speaches

So I heard the speaches at the UN yesterday.

I have a strong suspicion that all the questionable things the Iranian president said are going to be completely ignored. Like talking about how he was peace and justice for all, and that Israel should be destroyed. And how he is going to bring about the mesiah. And how the U.S. has to be removed from the security council, and how he wants to take over the U.N. because he says its a failed institution and he will make it better.

Lets see if anyone talks about those things. I doubt it. Its too scary and people don't like scary things apparently.

19.9.06

Rabbi Aryeh Kaplan

R. Kaplan's books have by no short order been the most influential on me I have ever read.

In this day and age of mocking and deriding people I respect, I would like to ask people to help me find someone who finds R. Aryeh Kaplan's writings to be bunk, not "real Judaism" or anything else that might discredit his influence.

17.9.06

Midnight Party: Slichot!

Apparently they put out a pre-slichot video this year to inspire people. Not sure if it was all that inspiring, but R. Frand made some interesting points. I am going to take his points out of context and apply them to the blog world which I've witnessed shortly.


1. Vilna goan apparently said that the generation before Moshiach will not only be doing evil for superficial reasons, but will be doing good for superficial reasons also. Since we know that every generation has the potential of being the generation before the Moshiach this is a timeless "fault". I think this is also the "source" of the internet skeptic blogger. Too much "superficiality" as a sign of fakeness, instead of it being a sign of "taking things for granted" and "nature"

2. This one will go over most people's heads, but thats fine. Nature does everything by rote. As the speaker was prone to say often "Day in, day out, day in , day out" (sounds a lot like Dayan die out .. but anyway) We think the world is on automatic, but we learn from our sources that NO!, Rabono shel Olam rebuilds the world every second. Everything is new, even though everything is old.

3. There is no point three. Does that mean there is no point?


4. For the first time I decided to daven Slichot 90% in English and 10% in Hebrew... Best Slichot ever. ironically, my fiance did the same thing, and she also had her best slichot ever. Both of us thought we didn't have enough pages or something. Very bizzare.

15.9.06

Cafferty agrees with Daganev.... sorta

On T.V. a few minutes ago I heard a question asked on CNN. Normally I don't watch CNN but in the morning they are better than any other news station. (apparently they are the only ones who do news in the morning period these days.)

Anyway here is the question.

Cafferty File

Cafferty File

Jack Cafferty sounds off on the stories crossing his radar. Write in to answer Jack's hourly questions, and watch to see if he reads your response.

4 p.m.: Would you support a third national political party headed by Colin Powell and Barack Obama?

Now, I dont know why he chose those two people, does anyone have a record of what they hold by? However, he is trying to start a third party bandwagon. Looks like my 2010 prediction isn't all that far off.

13.9.06

Random thoughts of today.

I heard on NPR today that 43% of Californians are registered as either Republican or Democrat, and the number of "decline to states" is still on the rise. Looks like my prediction of a new party by 2010 isn't all that far off.

Apparently, puting the words "islam" and "facism" next to eachother is now "inappropriate" but its perfectly fine when they say Nazi-zionists on college campuses across the country.

I read that someone keeps saying that Rush Limbau supports path to 9/11 but pushed to get the CBS Reagan movie pulled off the air. According to reality though, Rush Limbau was off the air when the controversy was alive in 2003. (because he was in rehab) Everything that Rush ever said about the CBS Reagan movie was said after CBS moved the movie over to Showtime. I would just like to make a small point here however. The CBS movie was ABOUT Reagan, the ABC movie was NOT about Clinton. It was about the American Govenment and the failures of the beuocracy at higher levels. Nobody seems to care about that point. I would have thought that Democrats would have ceased on this Movie to show that nothing has changed since then, and the Democrats would bring a new order to things. Oh well.

Bring on the party of 2010 (someone come up with a good name please)

11.9.06

How to Study Kabbalah: An amaeture's Primer

I have no credentials, but I am going to take a shot at this.

Here is my primer on how to study Kabbalah. I will demostrate by example rather than give instructions. Following, is a simple game the instructions will teach you how to play the game.


The game of TTT.

To start the game of TTT you must fist cnt the gmb.

Step 1:

cnt a lne x 3

Step 2:

cnt a lne x 3 sideways.

After you have Cnt the gmb you may play:

The first pyr will cnt an X in a sre defined by the gmb.

The second pyr will cnt an O in a sre defined by the gmb in which there is no X or O

The first pyr to get X x 3 or O x 3 in a lne wins the game.


Those who understand TTT will understand, and those who do not, will require more study.






Now I will tell you that TTT stands for Tick-tack-toe. Go over and read the instructions, does it make sense? Can you spot something wrong in the instuctions?



Welcome back. Now, I will tell you that "lne" means a line. Do the instructions make more sense?

Now, "cnt" = construct. However it also means "draw" - Can you now find two ways to play this game, do you get two different images of how this game works? (perhaps in one game you use a pen and paper, another version you use blocks or wood?)

Maybe we are still missing information? What is gmb? As some of you have probabbly guessed allready, "gmb" means Gameboard.

A "pyr" means Player. Notice how in one case the "first pyr" is a specific person, however later in the text we discover that "first pyr" is also, anyone who completes the task first.

The last undefined term is "sre" which means Square. Now that you know what "sre" means you can better know how to "cnt the gmb" so that it creates squares.

A semi hidden term, that may be understanble to most, but some people might miss it, in that they have to learn these new symbols is that lowecase x 3 means.. Do it 3 times.


This is how you study Kabbalah. First you read it, and you ignore that which does not make sense, but you keep it in your mind. Then later on you learn new terms, and things begin to make sense that you read previously. However, sometimes these terms have more than one meaning, and you go back and read the multiple meanings in the text.

For example in my simple game, it says draw a line 3 times, it means up and down, but later when it tells you how to win, a line can also be diaongal.

Now if somebody did not know -anything- about tic-tac-toe, odds are they would play this game incorrectly, because the instructions are sparse and not complete. You need the background of the game and culture, and in Kabbalah's case, Judaism and Halacha.. to make sense of it all.

Hope that helps.

My mandatory post about 9/11

So here is the story of what I was doing when 9/11 happened.

I was up all night playing computer games. Infact, I was playing Counter Strike. that ever popular mod from Halflife, where you are either a terrorist or a counter terrorist.

I had the news running 24/7 on my T.V back then, (back when they actually had news on 24/7 instead of just reruns of the news) And I saw the news of the planes hit.

My first thought was... wow, how Ironic. Because just then my computer blared "Terrorists win"

Then my second thought was, Finally! Now America will know what Israel is going through, and what Terrorism really means, and how its a global issue not just an Israel vs Arabs issue.

5 years later, I am wondering why even some Jews still don't get that, let alone America :(


At some point down the line, I also felt bad about the large loss of life. But not really, numbers are numbers, and its the history and larger picture I'm interested in. But then again, I have never been one to get emotional over death. I get much more emotional when I think about the personal projects all those people had that was left unfinished. But thats just my personal issues of detachment from emotions.

Realism vs Reality - reposted

I just have to fully repost this post I just read.

Hopefully the reader of the article will be with me and think about this when it comes to ones search for truth in the world.

they say that truth is stranger than fiction- but we humans won't really accept that save in small isolated debates. We don't really live our life that way.

anyway, here is the post. I will also ask that you ignore the racist remarks, and other details that might make you think "this guy is a wackjob".

Also, think about this article in the terms of the philosophy of Objectism and realism.

Realism vs Reality
By Andrew Klavan (bio)

On the anniversary of Islamo-fascism’s most savage unprovoked attack on western civilization, though all the news is about ABC’s 9/11 miniseries, I find my own mind going back to a moment in another film, United 93. It’s the scene in which the heroic American rebel Todd Beamer, played by David Alan Basche, utters the words that were to become the battlecry of our society’s ongoing fight for survival: “Let’s roll.”

The film, you’ll remember, is a self-consciously “realistic” documentary-style telling of the 9/11 attacks. The uprising on the doomed plane is shown as frantic and chaotic. The now-famous words are buried, almost inaudible under plane noise and a steady stream of frightened weeping and chatter. As the other brave American rebels try to gather their nerve for the assault against the Islamist hijackers, Beamer can just barely be heard muttering a nervous, “C’mon, let’s go, let’s go, let’s roll.”

Several people have mentioned this moment to me, always with praise for its “realism.” I always knew exactly what they meant. In fact, at first, I shared their feelings. By de-emphasizing the inspiring phrase, the filmmakers underplayed the drama and heroics of the moment. Rather than give us something that seemed to be part of the overblown, melodramatic world of the movies, they gave us instead something that seemed more like the confusion, smallness and helter-skelter of real life.

There’s only one problem with this: the moment in the movie isn’t real at all. In real life, the moment was as big, as overblown and melodramatic as any movie you’ll ever see. Beamer had managed to reach a phone company manager on his cell phone. A Christian family man, Beamer said the Lord’s Prayer with her. Then, setting the phone aside but leaving the line open, he said, “Are you guys ready? Let’s roll.” Heartbreakingly, it was a phrase his wife recognized from family outings.

In other words, the makers of United 93 achieved a sense of realism by reworking reality itself.

There was no other way – because what we’ve come to think of as realism in movies and literature is nothing more than a style, a particular way of showing and describing things. When we are confronted with this style, we understand that what we’re being shown is “realistic” whether it has anything to do with reality or not. Like all styles, the style called “realism” has certain recognizable components. For instance, in realistic dramas, people don’t speak eloquently. They hem and haw, talk over each other and leave sentences unfinished. In realism, low motives are always in the foreground and higher ideals are always undercut with irony. Mean streets are realistic, so are unhappy endings. Comfortable homes, loving families, heroism and uplifting faith are not.

This is bizarre when you come to think of it. It means that realism is mute when it comes to describing the best of what we can be, of what life can be. And this partially crippled form of communication is the prevailing style of serious cinema. You could almost say that we know a film is serious by how “realistic” it is. Conversely, when we see true faith and true heroism in movies, we feel we’re in the presence of rank sentimentalism, of powderpuff family entertainment. We feel that it’s somehow “unreal.”

A perfect example of this is the other major 9/11 movie: World Trade Center. This weirdly old-fashioned creation from director Oliver Stone jerks the occasional tear or two but it’s never really convincing and it leaves the viewer – it left this viewer anyway – strangely empty. On reflection, I thought the reason was obvious: Stone simply no longer has the cinematic language with which to describe the movie’s most fascinating and resonant character. The leads are two men trapped and helpless underground. They are heroic men because of what they were trying to do when they were trapped, but they are not the heroes of the film because, in the course of the story, they do nothing but wait and survive.

The real hero of the film is Marine Staff Sergeant David Karnes. Everyone I’ve spoken to about the movie senses this. Karnes feels called by God to leave his comfortable civilian life, to go in search of the two lost men and then, having found them, to re-enlist to help avenge the attack on the country he loves. Of course he’s the hero! In any film made before 1968, it wouldn’t have occurred to anyone that he was not the hero. Stone, however, came of age when the language necessary to describe this man’s feelings and inner self was becoming as dead as Greek and Latin. Instead, he films the marine wreathed in eerie light, with actor Michael Shannon delivering his lines in the other-worldly tones of a mad prophet. As a human figure, he’s “unreal.” Perhaps he’s the spirit of America, half-remembered and now half-insane. Just as likely, he’s Stone’s tortured memory of the man he was when he enlisted to serve in Viet Nam. But having lost that man, having lost those ideals, having become a “realist,” he can no longer bring him to life.

Listen, no one denies the corruption of the world – not me anyway. No one denies that higher ideals are often mingled with mean motives or that even the most selfless moment can be tinged with selfishness. And yet, there is nothing unreal about a man turning to God and finding courage and guidance; about a man deciding to fight, and even to die, for a greater good; about a man assuming a natural mantle of leadership and speaking words of encouragement to lead his fellows on. These things happen all the time. They happened on United Flight 93. They happened at the World Trade Center.

Why have modern films - why have we - lost the power to speak of them?

10.9.06

Judaism and Kabbalah

A repost of a comment of mine over at RespondingtoJblogs.

"From the kaballah I have learned, it seems to be nothing but gibberish. Of course you should only study such things until your "ready" for them.

Does anyone actually understand the sefirot and klepah and such?


I am not claiming to be an expert, and I am far from a wise and learned person, but I believe, I understand the sefirot and klepah and such.

What I have found in studying kabbalah is 3 key points.

1. First, you have to learn breadth of knoweldge, and not question anything you read. Just take it on face value, and pretend its describing a fantasy world. Once you get breadth of knoweledge, then you can go back and start reading everything in a way where you try to fit how this reflects reality. The reason for this, is that kabbalah is written in imagery for the mind that is not ment to reflect reality, but rather give you a starting point to see that which can not be seen within your own thinking. I am a very visual person, I remember things by the picture I see in my head. At this point in my studies of Kabbalah, I can't see pictures, I have to remember the "hints of thought" that I get when I read, because the images are not complete enough for me.


2. The system of Kabbalah is inherrently irrational. Torah and Gemorah is rational, Kabbalah is the counter balance which allows a person understand the irrational aspects of the other wise rational system. This is because human beings are irrational, and sometimes Halacha, Gemorah, Torah, is appealing to our human side, not our Computer robot rational side.

Let me try to explain how Kabbalah is irrational. In kabbalah, we say there are 10 sephirot. But really, we have 11, but really only 9 are "accessible" but really, 10 are accessible (if you include the 11th), but really, all of them are accessible because none of them are Gd, but there are only 10. This may seem like nonsense, but really it makes sense in a human mind, non rational way.

To me, Kabbalah is giving intelect to your emotions, its a means of awakening a means to trust your emotions on a level that allows you to work as a full human being, and removes the dichotomy of emotional/rational.. or heart/mind etc etc. It basically allows a person to be a single unit instead of a duality.

As for comments about being "ready"-- its true, in a way. The only thing you have to be ready for, is how to compartamentalize. You need to follow halacha(Or some clear cut system that tells you Yes/No) to protect yourself from the dangers of Kabbalah, which opens a person up into seeing everything as Yes AND No.

3.9.06

Daf Yomi Sium: Thoughts

About 25 men between the ages of 13 and 99 showed up to the daf Yomi sium. Some 85 days ago Irvine started its Daf Yomi program, and now we have our first complete sium. Its the first time anyone in Orange County ever hosted a Daf Yomi sium. And how appropriate that we should be finishing up the tractate of Yom Kippur.

It was a great time for all.

For those who don't know what the last page of Yom kippur talks about, here is a brief summary.

1. What is Vidu? Which prayers should we say?

2. What is Neila? Do we have to say the full Shemona esrei or not?

3. Who can go to the mikva on Yom Kippur, and all questions related to that.

But here is what I found interesting. The Gemorah talks about Erev Yom Kippur as "Oar Yomkippur" or The light of Yom Kippur. Now its not uncommon for the Gemorah to play opposite day, and say "The master of sight" when talking about a blind man. But one wonders, what is so wrong about saying Erev, or night, or darkness? That's natural. However, here the Gemorah feels that it needs to use a euphemism, and call the night, light.

I think there are many things we can learn from this, but one thing relevant to the blogosphere, is that we should be careful about how we talk negatively about others. Even something as benign as "evening" needs to be talked about in euphemism.

Just something to think about.

2.9.06

New links, new blogs

I added some links on the left to new blogs that I have been introduced to.

Just a comment about Bare Dove. I hope they are able to repair the nature of lashon harah that sometimes gets passsed around the blogs. However, I also really hope they do not fall into the trap of giving out Lashon Harah in the name of combating it.

I hope most people on the net who spend thier time blogging can know how to not cross the line, and where the line is crossed.

Also, G_d willing I will be posting tommorow about Irvine's and Orange County's first Daf Yomi Sium.